Thursday, January 18, 2007

From Osi with Love - MINE

I have recently acquired a new friend. I’m truly excited. Except that he lives in England (that’s not so bad) and his phone bill is sky rocketing (this is bad). He truly is a magnificent and wonderful fellow and I’m glad that the Lord sent him my way. He really is quite refreshing, funny, witty and without a doubt sweet. Our outlook on life and the daily struggles of trying to find our purpose was something we scarily had in common. And we’ve decided to encourage each other along. He is very much single, so at least we can be single together (at least for the next 6months – but nothing is guaranteed – right!! He sent me one of the many articles he’s written (oh did I forget to mention that he is also a poet). After reading many of his fine work, I pleaded with him to let me post this one. He has. From Osi with Love - Mine

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Every once in a while my heart wanders to times long gone. Memories sweet and bitter, dreams long abandoned and forgotten back to hunt me. There is a conflict between faded fantasies and new aspirations. The feeling is hard to explain, impossible to place as good or bad. I feel trapped yet free, my heart feels heavy but light. I feel wrapped in a seamless cloud of joy and sadness.

My heart wanders. The one thing on my mind is the beauty and innocence of childhood, the perfect and pure smile of a toddler, his wrinkle free face that neither feels nor understands the pain of this world. Without fear of the days to come, with complete trust he staggers as he explores the world. His world is pure and without selfish motives. No Matter how many times he stumbles he is up again. Failure never holds him back; he knows nothing about selfish motives. Without pride or shame he cries with all his heart. With the same energy he laughs as he rolls in the dust.

How I miss those days. Times when my youthful mind was pure. Back then I was in a hurry to get out of bed because there was work to be done. There was a world to touch. The 14 year old boy could give his whole heart to a course he believed in. Now my mind is dragged away by so many things. The alarm clocks don’t get me out of bed any more. It only tells me how many more hours I can give to sleep. I look in the mirror and I am shocked at the man I have become. The receding hair line and the extra wrinkles I can stand, but the drifted heart tears me apart. How did it come to this? Where did I fail? How have I failed?

Once again I find it hard to get on my feet, so I remain on my knees and ask for help. I know He has not given up on me. He never gives up on us. Time slips but I must hold on. I must fight to keep the dreams of my youth alive. To live life to the full, to experience the reason I am and return to my essence.

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23 comments:

Olawunmi said...

he has skills. i like this, i could totally identify.

oh to be a child again....

Belle said...

hmmm...i think i like this osi fella... with his beautiful words.

i like men who have a way with words...
poets.
I see you do too ;)

Dipo Tepede said...

Hmm....

Life of a Stranger!

Life of a Stranger!

Life of a Stranger!

This might just be the one.......

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

@olawunmi - wow - I told him he impressed you - a fellow peot.

@belle - nne you want me to introduce you. My six months havnt even started, people want lead him away. LOL.

@dipo - the gini - the gini - the one ke - this your imagination is good. This might a juicy blogger story to send to Miss T (aka tmix)

azuka said...

It's funny that we all want to be young again, to taste the simplicity of childhood. When we were younger, we wanted to be where we are now...

Desola said...

Who doesn't want to be a child again? Hmm...every year, I wish I had held on longer to my last age and enjoyed it more but the truth is, i'm always wrapped in the i'm one year older again syndrome and never quite get over the ageing feeling until yet another older age comes knocking. I want badly to keep hold of my youth that i've started doing everything required. Eating more fruit, less carbs and fatty food etc. I tell you, wether we like it or not, that clock will keep ticking.

By the way,Miss.Stranger, any reason why we haven't hooked up with the British fella? He might be a good catch after all!

DiAmOnD hawk said...

this is totally relateable. it's a journey we take now and again...i do it..i think back to how i was...meanwhile this Osi fellow...for some weird reason i think it's another person that blogs...i have to do my research on this one....where is BIJOU my follow internet detective...lol

Ms Jade said...

hmmmm.. this is really interesting, i feel something in the air.

temmy tayo said...

I have a weakness for guys that have ways with words. Yeah, I do.

If only i can be 16 again. So innocent.....

confusednaijagirl said...

seems like yesterday when I was !6 too,. the guy has skills, should we start choosing aso ebi ( if thats the right spelling)

londonnaijachic said...

very nice! that piece he wrote touched somewhere deep within.

Ajike said...

good pick girl... he sure writes well... invite blogsville to the big day oh :)

DiAmOnD hawk said...

is it O. Osi?...lol

Anthony Arojojoye said...

Nne this one seems good with literature o.
Is he complimenting it with being a tall doctor?
Abeg make am sharp sharp so we'll wrap it up in 6 months as you said.

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

@anthony - no be like that now. I said we are friends - he has many admirers, so he might not single for too long - and the admirers doesnt include me like that. We are encouraging each other along - we are just good friends - I dont see him like that - anthony - seeeee.

@Diamond - its not O its just Osi and he lives and work in cambridge UK - so I think the one u think he is, is not him -LOL. Also he doesnt have a blog - he did consider it a while ago, but decided against. I wonder where bijou is - I guess end of school is getting the best of her. But D. good try though..LOL.

@ajike - he is isn't he - very talented - I wish him all the best.

@londonnihachic - thanks for visiting my blog, and Im glad he touched somewhere deep inside. I will let him know he has a fan.

@confused - girl - yep he has skills, but the ashoebi u can start choosing casue Im claiming it - But not with him biko. He is a good friend but not that kinda friend.

@temmy - so do I - I do like men who know their way with words, lyricists that is - if only I can be 16 again too - I wonder what I will do all over??

@ms jade - thing you are feeling in the air, pls elaborate alittle bit more. pls tell me. What is t?? LOL. Thanks for droping by my blog.

@desola - I also try alittle bit harder now to try and feel young as long as possible in form of eaten better, and excersing more. And how quickly the years seem to fly by. Osi is such a good friend I never really saw him as some to hook up with, maybe casue I have yet to see him in that light yet. Oh he is defo admirable, but not for me.

@azuka - that is so life. when I was younger I always wanted to be older and have larger boobs LOL..but now that I am here I wish I hadnt been in a rush to grow up. Life is so funny.

Coral said...

Hmmn...Beautiful write.

TLOASM, thanks for the birthday wishes...

Uplifted said...

In as much as childhood brings good memories, i most definitely do not want to be a child again. !!

The gentleman writes beautifully. He seems like a deep person and genuine. I like that. So cheers to your new friendship dear.

renz said...

This is a very good write up..... not just the togetherness of the words but the reality of what it's worth. I have to start growing younger (Even Jesus said so....be like this little ones)

ChiefO said...

hmmmmmmm thats some deep thinking u got put up there. we all do think too, if only we could do somethings all over again.


hi stranger, thanks for always stopping by my blog.

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

oh that is just beautiful... A guy who has a way with words is a guy to keep.. that's just a fantastic piece... to be a child again! Nne i hope he is an engineer. lawyer or Medical doctor so the both of you can make things happen.. lol

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

@coral, uplifted, renz and chiefo - thanks guys for visitng my blog - Osi loves all this attention and sends his love out to you guys too.

@ONB - girl he knows his ways around words, and women are cueing - kai - and he is an engineer - but sorry o tell you we are just chatting buddies - says he like girly girls, make up, high heeled shoes, fixes up their nails kinda girl. You know one..LOL. though I am one, I think another will do.

confusednaijagirl said...

update pls!!!

UnNaked Soul said...

deep! very deep!! so am not alone after all...