Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Stumbled upon a miracle

stumbled upon a miracle

I really wasn’t expecting any more goodies

My life had dried up

I said those prayers albeit mechanically

I had my share of crisis

A lot on these shoulders

A man who was never a boy

For love not fear was why I cared

I lived to make them proud and I did

Resources depleted.

Bad decisions

The bane of every man

The pieces started coming together

Refusal to let go

My terrible pain akin to addiction

I let go- totally

They said it would be a sword

A spiritual one

How true they were

In a sense. I was in Chains: a prisoner of unrequited love

Suddenly I was free

Tunnel vision. No more I see the designs. Clear patterns now

It came when I didn’t expect

This miracle I stumbled upon

Like all things that are meant to be: no plot, no ploy no scheme, just bliss

The man two thousand years ago who came and healed and cleansed

Did so as simply too

I believe that it is so

The simplicity of my miracle

I don’t confess to know it all

I admit to have it all

But I can tell you what I read

I read: 1 Corinthians 13:4

From a book inspired by the man

It will keep my miracle intact

Friday, July 25, 2008

Living in God's Divine Will

I am wondering, if there are people out there, who are of the view, or use the excuse that whatever God has written for them it is permanent regardless of whether they act or not.

I ask you this question, when His season to bless you comes, and he harkens to you, reveals His words and plans to you, sends His prophets to you, advising you to stand up and walk into His blessings, do you still sit where you are, citing that because He is a God whose plans are irrevocable, He will make sure what He has for you comes to pass, whilst you sit and not do as you’ve been told / warned. Do you still expect God to then bless you when you think is the right time, after you have refused to listen to Him When He asked you to act!

His words give us examples of people who waited on Him and when it was their time to get up and Go they did. To name a few, people Like Abram (Gen. 12:4), who later became Abraham because He struck out when God told him to. People like Joshua, who of his generation (with Caleb) saw the Promised Land (Num 14:38; 26:65; 32:12). People Like Jesus' disciples. In Noah's time (Gen. 6:8), he listened and acted, but the people around him could have been saved if they believed and acted when warned. There too was the example of the two thieves hanging on the cross next to Jesus, one recognised his season and the other didn't. These aforementioned walked into their destiny thereby fulfilling the purpose and plan God had for them.

So I ask you again, which one are you? Think about it? Why then do you complain about how others seem to be fulfilling their purpose in God, while you do like the Israelites did at the time when Herod asked them the question about where Jesus was to be born, when He was already born and living among men (Matt. 2:4).

As for me, I have made up my mind, not to be disobedient and be watchful in prayer for when the Lord bids me to act. Because only when I partner with Him in agreement will I know when to and when not to act.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

A Time of Thanksgiving..

Philipians 4:4-9

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.


The Joy of my Salvation, the Joy in Christ, which is totally independent of my circumstance and situation has been restored unto me. Thank You Lord for a quick response. Thank you Lord for an EXPRESS answerd prayer.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

I am whom God says I am

Its been a while now, I had forgotten whom God says I am. I had forgotten how He made me an everlasting Pride and the joy of all generations. How He has become my everlasting light and how my days of sorrow would end. How because he helps me, I will never fear shame and disgrace. That this is not the lot for me and my family. You see I may not have been faithful to him with somethings, but if He were to search my heart He would see how trully sorry I am.

I thank you Lord for making me into a light, I pray that my light will wane nomore, for you are my help in times of trouble. Oh Lord do not delay help me Lord, my heart is overwhlmed, help me my God who is steadfast and never late. I cry out to you Lord, only you Lord are able to deliver me from this.

Lord I'm still holding on. Challenge now is for how much longer. You showed that I am that light that shines through that darkend path. And without my light, journey through that path will be impossible. Challenge now is will I be able to arise and shine through that darkened path. Challenge now is will I be able to want to. I am almost tired.
I dont know which way to turn. I feel this intense crushing feeling. My heart can't appear to take all this anymore, but it has to. I call to you at midnight knowing you alone are attentive to me. I don't want to end up in the hospital again Lord. I have to wait for you Lord because I can see you in my horrison. I have to trust that you will arise on my behalf. People at work are noticing my light appears to be fading. Holy Spirit Strenghten and reinforce me. Help me now.

Lord you are indeed a God that answers prayers. A restorer of that which was stollen. Heal my heart O Lord. Help me to see what you have in store for me. Remove my blindspots and rebuild my trust and hope. Help me not to hold on to the past. Help me to see past my hurt. To see into my future, that which you have carefully and beautifully created for me. Thank you Lord of hosts. Thank you mighty deliver. Thank you wonderful Father. You have been my only hope, my only source of strength, my Lord my God.

The cloud is lifted. My fate have changed. My light has started to shine brightly. My colleagues have refused to leave me until I never stop laughing. Thank God for work colleagues, who are always ready to make a fool of themselves at my expense. Today is a good day. I can definately see YOU Lord in my horrison. Thank you Jesus.

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Search Me O God - Earnestly I desire this LORD!!

Psalm 15:1-3

1 LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?
Who may live on your holy hill?

2 He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart

3 and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellowman,

Psalm 51:1;4;6-7; 10-11;

1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.

4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.

6 Surely you desire truth in the inner parts;
you teach me wisdom in the inmost place

7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Psalm 139:1-3;7;23-24

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

7 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalm 84:10-12

10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
the LORD bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.

12 O LORD Almighty,
blessed is the man who trusts in you.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Is your steps Ordered?

Interesting enough I am just returning back to Italy from my Trip to the UK. It was supposed to be a dress fitting excersise plus a few confirmations. However my frustration with my dear airlines tried to cloud my journey.

After a fabulous weekend with my better half and family, I proceeded to attempt my return back to Italy. I hadn't booked my return leg of the flight because I wasn't sure which city I may need to fly out from. Never the less when the time came to book my return flight I found that it would be best for me to make my way to London and try and get a flight out from there so that I could get back at a reasonable time. I live on the mountains, so depending on where I fly in, I still have a minimum of 3hrs left prior to my final destination. So trying to get back here in the evening would mean a serious mission for me.

Anyhow, as I made my last minute dash to London in anticipation of booking a flight on arrival (of course I could have booked a flight prior to my trip to London - but then again I could so easily change my mind last minute - I know I like drama..lol..), I found on entry that the flights I wanted were fully booked remaining only the expensive seats. As I contemplated what next to do I opted to book the cheaper flight out, and decided to spend two nights and a day in London.

I am glad I did. I found that the Jesus House in Brent cross were having a 21day fast, which was ending with a thanks giving service on that monday I desperately wanted to travel. I went to the service, to say it trully was an amazing service is really an understatement. I found my self in the same situation as the last minute workers in "the parable of the workers", being blessed simply by just making it at the eleventh hour (Matthew 20: 1-16). Others have been working hard for the last 21 days as they waited on God, and here I was, just happenend to be at the right place at the right time, receiving the same blessings as those who were there from the onset.

As we went home all five of us, I spoke out loud saying, I really don't understand how this beautiful, wonderful awsome God loves me so. Who always remembers me only to bless me. Directing my footsteps to wherever He knows He will bless me the most. Even though I saw how my lovely E had lost weight from waiting on God this 21 days, I too went home partaking in what God had to offer during this time. vs. 15 of that chapter says - 'Don't I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous?' - I am so grateful God is generous, cause seriously by all counts, I didn't deserve to be blessed. But He blessed me anyway. Isn't God something? I went back to Italy the next day rejoicing, still in the knowledge that I am just too important for God.