Thursday, April 17, 2008

So Lately

I should really be on top of the world, but I am slowly falling into a depressive state. My heart aches. Really. If it's not my "F" state, Its my "M" state. I was throwing up in the toilet and my bin yesterday. I feel like Im knocking against a brick wall. I am tired/exhausted in my spirit, but my body shows no signs of it.

My landlord saw me this morning, asked me if everything is well. I told him very well indeed. I came into my office slumped into my chair, my office mate asks me, its not like you to look so beaten. I tell him all is indeed well.

The funny thing is if you asked me what is trully bugging me, I have checked it, it's trully nothing major. Infact it's a non-factor. But what I know is the "devil be rebuked in my life" in Jesus Name. Amen. Prayers that have always been prayed on my behalf. The Lord has made me into a light, that glows from within and is seen from afar off, and His plans He will watch to fulfillment. He is faithful, and I cannot thank Him enough for the testimonies He has placed on my lips, for I will continually sing His praises from the roof tops, and declare His goodness in my life. For He has delivered me from the depths of the grave and made me the pride of nations. For His words reminds me that people I don't know will work for me. I claim His promises. All of it in Jesus Name.

So what is the koko of the oro, as my friend "child of the most high would say" - Lord help me not to see myself as a dissappointment to all I come in contact with. For I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and all my papers - looks like all 4 of them must be finished and published before august of this year in Jesus Name. Amen. Those people that are supposed to be working for me, I arrest them in Jesus name, and may they make my projects their priority in Jesus Name. Amen.

Going back to MT work. Thank you Jesus for answered prayers. Amen.

9 comments:

Jaycee said...

LOAScM, pls don't get sick o. And yes, ur prayers for the completion of ur papers have already been answered. Let ur faith keep u moving on.

A Kel called Wonder ...... said...

Hon Amen to the prayer. Your papers will surely be completed and sooner than you expect and other expect.

You/ we only believe the report of the Lord that says you are excellent. Keep on keeping on Doc.

Lee said...

Just hold on, be strong and have faith in him for we all have those moments as well.

TaureanMinx said...

Aww, don't feel down. Today is a brand new day and it will be well by Gods grace. Keep glowing girl :)

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

"Lord help me not to see myself as a dissappointment to all I come in contact with"

HHmmm, true. Amen!

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Free-flowing Florida said...

my dear, just relax a bit. i assume it's a psychological wahala daz worrying u. find ur happy place & spend lots of time there. e go better

azuka said...

I hope you feel better soon -- both in the spirit and in the flesh ;-)

Vera Ezimora said...

Amen oh!!

And I'm gonna use you as a point of contact for myself too. It will be well, my dear. In fact, it is well.