Friday, February 09, 2007

Why cant he let it go

Or should I say me [she said].

He loves me, he says. I think I know he does, he's made his intetions and his feelings glaringly clear to me. I think I love him too. Its so easy being with him, and talking to him - apart from his fake amerablam accent - Im not sure if he's lived in the US before - infact I know he hasn't - but I think I can go past the accent, and accept him for who he is.

I'm trying to be realistic. I need to make sure I love him for the correct reasons and not because of the way he makes me feel especially when I hear his voice. He still calls even after we'd said our goodbyes. He said he understood and have accepted, and yet he always makes me want to loose control of myself whenever I talk to him. I know its probably my flesh taking, but I should know better.

Darn it, why woun't he just let me go. It would have been alot easier to look forward to the future, but all this taking 10 steps backwards and two steps forward is taking its tool on me. I think Im tired now. My mind is made up and I remain resolute on my decision, but if only he could move on, I know I will be happy. I shan't tell as lie. His words of encouragement, and his remarkable insights into life's problems is very much needed, and just a word from him commands much respect. How can he be so good, but so wrong.

He needs to let her go. Its time she starts to look forward to what plans God has instore for her. I pray he can let it go, and then let her go.

95 comments:

Azuka said...

Life is never easy. The things we know deep within us we need to let go of are the ones hardest to.

I pray you find a way out...

DiAmOnD hawk said...

hmmmm.... is her at the end you?

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

@diamond - uve come again. Ok it is me. Yes Its me.

Anonymous said...

Is this about an EX maybe? hmmm .... well, just take your time to make well thought choices about everything dear.

Anonymous said...

hmmmm clearly i've been gone for a while...who is he ooo ...ok need to read your archives....

Jennifer A. said...

Hmmm...this is really intense. I usu. don't like mixed feelings, for instance when u really want to let someone go but u still keep getting jitters when you talk to him.

The best answer can only be found on ur knees, not thru ur human understanding. Therefore, I can't stand to tell u what to do, only God knows...but don't relent. Keep asking for divine wisdom concerning this situation...

Teva said...

@miggie my sentiments exactly...Aunty when it comes to man, i've given up trying phantom why men do the strange things they do

Vera Ezimora said...

You have 2 xpantiate o! Why is he letting her (you) go? I don't understand. You love each other, but u want him 2 let u go? Am I missing something here?

LondonBuki said...

I totally agree with Azuka...

Naijadude said...

But my question is, how does she know she has to let go? I think its beyond her will. she needs to take it to the divine, seek wisdom, and understanding so she can be able to know if he's meant to stay or let go!
Have a good week

Anonymous said...

Here's to "resolving" issues

Cherub (former Bijouxoxo) said...

Infact, i'm speechless. Let her just keep praying and she shouldn't try to push away those feelings, they're there for a reason. Ok, i'm tired and i've had a rough snowy day. Off to bed i go.

Kafo said...

sho
omo i don't know if this is real but u almost had mii in tears
for real one more paragraph and i would have to be reaching for the kleenex

Biodun said...

Hmm, he loves you now ehn, its not easy like that to let go. I hope it all works out for the best!

Anonymous said...

sounds like you cant let go either ;)

Confused Naija Girl said...

we need some explanation.is she you? sounds like both of you dont want to let go.

Proudly Foodie said...

Where art thou, TLOASCM?

Vera Ezimora said...

update!!!

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

@azuka - I thank God that I have. I finally spoke to him - again - I hope he has.

@Jem - Not really an ex - he's friend/ex/goodfriend/hates me now I think...

@spicymiguel - thanks for dropping by. Longest time. Your post on the single dude was hilarious..ok..I was moved..

@jaycee - finally hun, Im able to let him go. I think he has. or maybe he's gone to come back 100 times stronger.Whichever it is I have peace. But thanks for the encouragement.

@teva - they do dont they - why don't they seem to understand the word NO. Always persistent.

@Vera - hun - we were together for a while. After serious prayers and fasting. I felt it wasn't right. So I had to say my gooddbyes - but he doesn't want to. He thinks I got it wrong. But me and others can't. Anyways that is the long and short of it all.

@london B -thanks for the prayer, sweetie.

The Life of a Stranger called me said...

@ NaijaDude - Babe - I thought you understood. she has prayed finish and it was not all clear. Hope you've had a blessed.

@ONB - Thanks hun. I think I finally have.

@cherub -its not easy to push away all the feelings - but she really has tried. And I think she'll be ok.

@Kafo - Thanks for visiting my blog. Glad you found it interesting. Life really is something.

@biodun - I dont know which kind love this is. But if she says she doesn't feel its right - shouldn't he atleast give her some serious time.

@anonymous - thanks for your view. But I know Ive let go - its just harder move on when he is persistently asking us to give it another chance. You know there really isnt a point, but you hope not to hurt him.

@confused naija babe - Yes its me - and hopefully we have.

@eagle's nest -I am here dearie. Ive left a message on your blog.

@vera - will do. Thanks for the nudge.

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